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The thing that I hate the most about being far away from family and friends is that I'm missing out on important events in their lives. I can't do anything but watch from afar.

Desiderata

Max Ehrmann

Go placidly amid the noise and haste, and remember what peace there may be in silence.
As far as possible, without surrender, be on good terms with all persons.
Speak your truth quietly and clearly; and listen to others,
even to the dull and ignorant; they too have their story.

Avoid loud and aggressive persons, they are vexations to the spirit.
If you compare yourself with others, you may become vain and bitter,
for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself.
Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans.

Keep interested in your own career, however humble;
it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time.
Exercise caution in your business affairs, for the world is full of trickery.
But let this not blind you to what virtue there is;
many persons strive for high ideals,
and everywhere life is full of heroism.

Be yourself. Especially do not feign affection. Neither be cynical about love;
for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment it is as perennial as the grass.
Take kindly the counsel of the years, gracefully surrendering the things of youth.
Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune.
But do not distress yourself with dark imaginings.
Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness.

Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself.
You are a child of the universe no less than the trees and the stars;
you have a right to be here. And whether or not it is clear to you,
no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.

Therefore be at peace with God, whatever you conceive Him to be.
And whatever your labors and aspirations, in the noisy confusion of life,
keep peace with your soul. With all its sham, drudgery and broken dreams,
it is still a beautiful world. Be cheerful. Strive to be happy.

Source: http://www.davidpbrown.co.uk/poetry/max-ehrmann.html

Thanks to a great friend for sending me this! Love you chenes! <3

Productively Unproductive

So I'm supposed to be doing this proposal for class which is due in a few weeks, but I want to finish it early cos I want feedback from my prof. BUT I can't get myself to do it. damn it. All I've accomplished is just writing random ideas on sheets of paper and when I try to put the ideas together my mind goes blank. WTH is wrong with me?! Probably got used to always doing things the last minute so when I try to actually finish something in advance my mind subconsciously tells me "wag na muna, may oras ka pa" I seriously need to stop this. It's not a good habit to have.

Putting off important things to do leads me to do my usual internet surfing and finding useless things time. And today found these:

1. Discovered the name of the volcano in Iceland is Eyjafjallajokull. I've heard all the news and everything that happened in Europe but just found the name today. I don't think I've heard the news say the name of the volcano. I can understand if the anchors don't want to say it cos how do you even pronounce that? Even just remembering the name would be a challenge. But it's kind of cool having a name that no one outside that country can pronounce, probably makes the volcano more bad-ass.

2. Found Trololololo guy. I maybe late in discovering him but I think he's awesome! :D

3. Found this too. Hmmm. Makes sense.

4. Sloganmaker.com

Maybe this is not as cool as it seems but when you try to put Rafael Nadal in you get some pretty interesting slogans ;)

e.g. Nonstop Rafael Nadal.

Rafael Nadal - You see this name, you think dirty.

It's more than satisfies, it's Rafael Nadal.

Rafael Nadal goes under your skin.

/fangirlism

Okay... I really do spend too much time in the internet. And these stuff isn't even half of what I normally read (like tennis blogs, youtube, facebook, twitter, blah blah blah) I sound so lame now. I need to get a life outside of this room. But what else can I do? At least I enjoy it. :) Until I realize I still need to do important stuff. :|

Good Friday

• had some extra sleep today! yey!
• kuya suprisingly sent me a text that didn't involve asking for something (ha!)
• was able to attend mass :) finally did something for the Holy week - Jesus died for us even if He didn't have to
  
• finished watching OTH 6
• wasn't stuck at home the whole day
• quiet day spent alone and with God

*these stuff would always be listed randomly*

We are all blessed

So i was thinking of making a different blog to write down blessings I receive everyday. But since I can't get the url name that I want I'll just list them here.

I realized that ever since (I dont know when) I've always put myself down by thinking of what could have been or what I could have done better with my life. It's a shame that people are never satisfied with the life they have. And sometimes (or even most times) I feel that. But then I look at my life again and see that I am blessed. I'm just too busy noticing the sad/bad things in my life or comparing my life with others that I forget that I'm destined for a different path and that I am blessed.

Question

When will I ever get myself to actually start writing here?

I'm a firm believer that you don't need to settle for anything less than what you want.