KATKINS

A few years ago a friend of mine made a very special blog entry for me on my birthday. A year before that she gave me a personalised letter plus chips. haha. Each year she always makes me feel special on my birthday. She never fails even just through facebook. I guess it's time for me to give some of the love back. She deserves to be treated like a princess on her day! :)

I think she remembers more clearly how we met. Though I do remember that we got close in FOTOCAM. This was during our first term for majors. She was a shiftee from ORGCOMM and didn't know anyone. I befriended her along with the half of the Bonosoc who I had the same classes with (Jill, Cuyeg, Jason). It wasn't hard to like her and it was very easy to get along with her. We pretty much were in the same wavelength regarding most things, so she easily became an adopted member of Bonosoc. :P One early conversation we had about a certain Pasig Paulinian was I think when we started 'bonding'. (please tell me you remember this. haha.) But through time we found out how much we related a lot with each other. From being Paulinians to being Lectors. From our crushes aka crushing on gay guys, to our weird stomach issues. Then we pretty much were together in most classes and were groupmates wherever possible. :)) College life would definitely be different without her!

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One of the most vivid memory I had with her was during one dreadful course card day. I was struggling to pull myself together and she was there to comfort me. She helped me make that phone call and get through that day. I don't like crying in front of people especially my friends or family. Only a few of my friends have seen me cry. But on this day I couldn't hold it in. I don't think I've ever cried like that in front of anyone ever. It was hard. But she was there. And that was enough. So thank you for that! :)

My fave pic of us! haha copied from your bday entry for me :)

To this day, even if we're miles apart, she still remains one of my closest friends. I love that we are still able to talk about the most random subjects from bastusan to real life issues. Thanks for always being there for me. I'm glad to know that I have someone like you who always has my back! Sometimes it doesn't even feel like I'm very far from you.

We've been through a lot together! And I'm eternally grateful that you're my friend! Thank you for being you and for being my friend. I hope you know that I'm always here for you too! I'm only a YM, a FB message, an email or a tweet away. :)

I miss you terribly Katherine Pasigan! I wish I was there to celebrate with you! Do know that I love you! and I wish you all the success and happiness in life. No one deserves it more. :D

welcome back

... to me. Finally decided to blog again. Not sure how long regular blogging will last but I'll try (again) to post more. Actually been writing a lot of (draft) blog entries, and they are scattered in my computer. I tried using Tumblr but I felt uncomfortable posting personal stuff there so I'm back here. Tumblr will be used (though not exclusively) for fangirling purposes. 


Changed my layout to match my Tumblr page. Then I realized that most of the blogs that I had before had the same 'style' neon colors on black. hee. I'll shut up now and will try to post something with more substance. :)

Cartoon Characters

Someone started a trend with this post in Facebook today:

Please change your facebook profile picture to your favorite childhood cartoons/characters and invite your friends to do the same. Until Monday there should be no human faces on facebook, but an invasion of memories. Support the worldwide protest against child violence.

It's probably the only Facebook meme that I participated in. Seeing everyone post cartoon characters from shows we used to watch brings back so many childhood memories. I like the idea behind the trend as I don't think anyone wants to condone violence against children. But looking at everyone's profile pics today I'm not sure if the cause is being heard. I feel like everyone's just posting to reminisce about the old times. I think I did it because of that. (Plus it gave me a reason to change profile pics cause I don't want to look at my face anymore. hee.) It just reminds me of how much I miss my childhood and how happy I was as a child. 


I actually found it a bit hard to remember which show was the one I liked the most because there were so many. And looking at the other's photos there were also a lot that I didn't watch. I remember not liking any anime's but I watch it sometimes because everyone was talking about it and my sister loved it. 


I always said that I miss being a child. This is probably a reason why I still act like a child at 23. I was never the kid who wanted to grow up quickly. I wanted to enjoy my childhood though looking back I did like more "mature" stuff when I was a kid. But all in all those were good times. I'd love to be able to go back to that time when all I worried about was school, food, sleep and TV.

OFF SEASON

The tennis season will be over in a few days after the Davis Cup Final between Serbia and France. The finals look exciting but I'm not keen on watching it. But I do hope Serbia takes the tie! Nole deserves to win a big title this season. AJDE!


But after this weekend there's nothing to look forward to other than the exhos which won't be televised other than the FEDAL one. I know the off season for tennis is very short, one month at least, compared to other sports but when you're used to reading news, blog, match results everyday I think that you'll feel that it's going to be a long wait 'til January arrives. I think twitter users will feel it even more because their timeline won't be as busy as it was when matches are going on. I won't have a lot to back read now when I get home which means more time for me do nothing. Or maybe try doing something productive.


Oh well, maybe all tennis fans need the break because as much as we love the game you do get tired of it too by the end of the season (just like the players). But I seriously can't wait for January! Being a Rafa fan 2010 has been amazing and I'm looking forward to a greater 2011. Goodbye Tennis. For now. :D

Blogging

I'm going to try and update this blog regularly now. I think I forgot how to write. So let's hope this will help me. Yay! 

Downers

We've all been one in some point of our lives. Unless you're that *weirdly* very optimistic person. Well if you are good on you! I hope there are more people like you in this world.


I don't like downers. They are the people who take away the fun out of anything. They are people who can make you feel so bad about your life and yourself. They are the people who see the negative side of everything and expect the worst to happen all the time. I hate them!


I may be like them sometimes but I like to think of myself more as a realistic or practical person. Though this part sometimes confuses me. How do you know if your just being realistic or just being too negative? Cos I think it can go either way. Depends on your way of thinking I guess.


I'm living at a place so far from home right now. I'm living with people that I was never even close with before I came here. I'm living in a country so different to my own. Everything is different from what I was used to back home. I've been here for more than a year and I find myself still struggling, still adjusting. With all the emotions that come with my situation right now the last thing I need in my life are downers. I need to surround myself with positive vibes or I might go into depression. I understand that going to a place so different will be hard. I get that. I prepared myself for that.I thought of that before I made the decision to go here.


I think it's normal to still feel sad, hopeless and homesick. But it is in times like these that I need people who believe in me and in what I can do. People who would tell me that I can do it and that everything is going to be okay. I need people who will support me. Who will tell me that even if you fail its alright because you know you gave it your all. I know what I need to do. It's just that it feels better if someone else says it. It gives you more motivation if it came from someone else because you feel that they have faith in you, and you know that you are not alone in the journey.


I don't get that a lot from people here. I get it more from my friends and family from home and I'm very grateful for that. They are the ones who push me. I need that extra push. So to my family and friends back home. I miss you! Thank you! I love you! For you, I'll give this my best shot! 

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Why is it that when I'm in the mood to write something in my blog, I can't think of anything to write about? But when I don't feel like writing I have heaps of stuff I want to write about. Dear self, Patalo ka. Love, me.